It's like with writing, if the book you want to read doesn't exist, you must write it - if the pattern I want to use in my craft doesn't exist, I must design it.
I have got a very good fiber craft education, and design was part of that. I know how to design.
My designs might not be the best in the world, but it really doesn't matter much what the rest of the world thinks, as I know what I need and want, and with several print on demand companies on the internet, I can get what I want - or give myself what I want...
Still... There is the doubt. Worries. Fear gnawing at my confidence and courage.
What if what I do isn't good?
What if it's not good enough?
What if... what if no-one else likes what I do?
I should be able to create something other people like, so I could get a little bit more income, to be able to afford what I want? What if no-one wants to buy my designs, and... If it doesn't generate income, it's useless, worthless, in vain...
And - at the same time I KNOW I'm good enough. I KNOW I like what I do. I would buy it. Spoonflower was created to give people the possibility to get the fabrics they wanted but didn't exist.
A couple of hours later:
Grr... I just can't get it to work! Something, somewhere is crooked enough to make the pattern not repeat properly! Dang!
Later that night:
A second effort to get it right. This time I actually straightened my spoon up and made it more symmetrical, so it was easier to work with. And I followed my husband's advice, and made the pattern in a grid, and I also checked that the horizontal line was straight, but for some weird reason I didn't bother checking the vertical line! And it wasn't... two pixels off. :-Z
I'll continue tomorrow. New day, new effort. Even if I'll be late for the contest, I'll be able to produce my first pattern to Spoonflower and it is good.
Day after: This is it: