One block down, 29 to go...

I'm really, really disappointed and disheartened right now.

Firstly, I had a real fight with the pattern, because the pattern I found on-line didn't match. I had to redraw it. That took a day.

I cut the first pieces, did my first try on English paper piecing, and sewing curved seams. Perfect. But it took two days, because I was procrastinating... So - I used about 3 hours the first day to baste the pieces for the first square (36 pieces), and 2 hours to sew them together, remove the papers and iron it.

I made the paper pieces of ordinary copiator paper, and it works very nicely.
I baste with thread and needle and just sew through all layers, and when I'm done, I remove that thread easily.

So. This morning I started with chlorining the lightest piece of fabric of the second color. Ok, that takes a little bit more explaining. I bought pre-dyed cheap sheets, and bleached 3/4 of it with chlorine. Or I asked my husband to do it. One of the colors went perfectly, the other one didn't. So I have tried to fix it, first by trying to get the lighter middle color darker with food dye, then I decided to lighten the lightest with another chlorine wash. And it's still not good enough.
And I could cry.

Now I need to decide if I shall go on with the project, with part of the fabrics (about 1/4 or less) not "perfect", with the idea of that "done is better than perfect", or will I scrap the project, because I don't have enough time, and it's stupid to waste all that time to make something that won't be good.

*sigh*

Well... my husband says it's ok.
And I know my family appreciates crafts, and one will be able to see the craftmansship, and it will be a good quilt, even when it won't be as pretty as I wanted it to be.

But right now I just want to cry and burn everything and never go out and meet anyone ever again.

And I'm still loving the a-hole, who betrayed me, rejected me and abandoned me. :´(

But I am surprised to find out how easy paper-piecing is.