Saturday, February 19, 2011

This year it wasn't as much fun as I remembered

OWOH came and went and, as already stated, this year it wasn't as much fun as I remembered from the earlier years... I have already sent the winners their parcels and hopefully they'll arrive next week and the recipients drop me a line telling me they received their packages.

I won nothing, again. It's ok, there are hundreds of people participating and even though most people give more than one give-away, there isn't enough for all, and also, some especially lucky people win more than one. Nevertheless, I'm disappointed and sad, as always, when I don't win. It's kind of natural.

But I'm planning on a sort of a give-away on my own. It's fun to give :-) In my Homes4Her blog I'm having a 30 days of Ostara "happening" going on, preparing for Ostara (Spring Equinox) and I will be preparing ornaments, one every day. I'm thinking that might be a good thing to give away.
Or perhaps I'll have a swap. You send me something and I send you an ornament and something.
Or something. I haven't made up my mind yet.

I'm still sad about the Easter Basket I never got, and there are some other swap packages that never arrived, so I'm a bit suspicious about swaps and giveaways.
Also, I'm not feeling well, I'm really sad, tired, having spouts of anxiety, so I think I "deserve" something. It would have been nice to win something in the hundreds of OWOH give-aways. God obviously thinks I have already enough stuff, and then I really need to get on with GIVING ME things.
I made two Ostara bunnies, really cute, and I'm already thinking about giving them to my sister. Of course, she'd love them, but so would I. I just don't know what to do with them.
Also, I made a sculpture/art doll/something, and plan to give it to another sister of mine. She would appreciate it, but, again, so would I.

But... nothing really matters at the moment. I'm dragging myself from one day to another, doing things just to keep doing things, not because the things are interesting, fun, amusing, entertaining, meaningful, necessary... Perhaps I'll wait a little with the things I did, and decide whether to keep or give later.


Carol said...

Would you like one of the "Love Doves" I created for OWOH?
Hop on over to my blog and have a look.
OWOH hugs.
Carol H.

Hope you feel better soon.

Ketutar said...

Oh, Carol, that's very sweet of you, but I'm going to say no, thank you. I do appreciate your offer, and that soothed my soul very much. But I really need to learn to give to myself :-) Before I've learned that I'd just give your gift to someone else, and that wouldn't be right.